The United States Navy was a way for me to find myself. It got me out of the beautiful small town I grew up in... that at the time I felt so trapped in.
I wanted to explore the world.
I knew the Navy would allow me to do that.
I really had no clue what I was getting into. I was 17 and my hippie parents had to sign the papers.
I was a super sensitive, intuitive and empathic child. And the world I grew up in had NO CLUE how to support my kind. I was bullied and intimidated consistently. Put into special education classes at a young age and I didn’t know I had choice in that.
Right off the bat the Navy has me running our bootcamp class. I found my self in charge... talk about a whole new world 🙌🏼😳🙃🌎
I found a sleeping energy inside of me.
I found diversity in ways I had never seen and couldn’t have been happier with my choice.
I was one of 3 people on my ship as a top secret Operations Specialist working on satellite 🛰 communication.
80% female on the first test ship for a higher female ratio. The USS Pearl Harbor LSD 52
I went to 26 countries.
I received 3 metals while I was in.
More than all of that I saw that no matter where you are the patterns in your life don’t go away unless you face them.
I learned that no matter where you are the strength IS inside.
I learned that for me I was an independent soul that couldn’t fly how I needed to inside the Navy.
And I wouldn’t take a second of my time in the USN away. I am so proud of my experience, the people and places. The Navy primed and launched me into who I am today.
The Navy was the beginning of knowing CHOICE.
The level of choice is so deep that it has all come full circle. I was and am still that sensitive little girl that needs to love and accept herself.
So the lesson in all this is that no matter where you go or what you do in life the patterns and belief systems that we hold onto as children don’t just go away.
More to my story about CHOICE…
I found myself in the hallway with my chief constantly… I had so many questions… Why this? Why that? The Navy doesn’t really like that when you have a top-secret Clearance, you’re not supposed to ask questions. But mostly nothing made sense to me.
This was a similar patterns that I found back home. I had so many questions about everything… Why Christianity? Why Catholic? Why this not that? One thing normal here is weird there??? To me they were so similar but they kept them selves so separate… School kids, religion, school it self… why this? Why that?
Just like the Navy I was told to be quiet and let it be the way it was. This is just the way it is!
I heard that everywhere and it literally made no sense to me… It is the way it is…
Doesn’t mean anything.
The confusion was so real for me at times it took me over.
How could we all be so separate how could we be also different?
I was always so open inside of me. To say or be whatever I saw or felt... But everyone outside of me seemed to have a problem with this.. People didn’t want to honor the truth. There was a fear inside. I wanted to push this... pretty much all the time. AND I also didn’t know I was pushing it... it just seemed to clear to me.
And I didn’t KNOW that they either did not see or were not wanting the world to know about.
What I sincerely didn’t know was that people are holding pain or trauma around these conversations, ideas or perceptions.
That sometimes I was actually hurting them by wanting to talk about these things.
I also DIDN’T KNOW that the trauma was so obvious to me. I didn’t know that I was going straight to the thing... the one thing that holds them down. Things to them that feels so sore that it feels like the only CHOICE is literally avoid it, stay away from it or fight to not touching it.
Inside I only ever wanted to be helpful, loving and supportive…
I didn’t know there was such a thing as being an empath.
I didn’t know how to not touch the trauma.
I was feeling outside emotion and feelings from others on such an intricate levels and no one ever told me a human could do this😳🙌🏼
I did not know it was a CHOICE.
It is a choice. The tool to knowing this was creating more space for me. Learning more about what ‘I’ want and need and not what ‘other’ options and perceptions are.
We are ‘individual’
Energy with a soul path.
This energy we carry has swirling electrons that we can voluntarily strengthen and weaken. It has become time that the statistics are proving that evolution is happening within our race. It is time to seek information, seek the why and what is it really? Conscious understanding is being completely open to knowing truth, no matter what for the highest good of all.
It is time humanity CHOOSES knowing.
Choosing Unity in Love.
Choosing to open up the mind to ideas outside of “Normal”
Choose strength.
Choose self love.
Choose truth.
Always love and light🧚🏼♀️💞
ErinNicole
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